Answer to My PrayersJuly 02, 2013
I have thought long and hard about sharing this on here and I still don't know how I feel about it. However, I am at the point where I need to just let my emotions out on paper and be relieved of all the stress and anxiety that has built up over the last couple of days.
I've had numerous doctor appointments over the last two years as you might of seen me discreetly tweet from time to time and each time I've left feeling more and more discouraged up until last Friday. I believe 100% that it was the Lord's will and perfect timing that allowed me to finally be seen by a doctor who could diagnose me with something other than Dyspareunia [which to me is a pointless medical term and after two weeks makes you sounds mentally insane according to the definition.] I almost didn't make it to this appointment on behalf of the hospital scheduling me for two different appointment dates which led me to believe that the latter date would be cancelled. So as you can see it was nothing short of a miracle that I happened to still have an appointment set for the 28th and that I had the day off of work. I was thrilled to be seeing a new doctor who could give me a fresh perspective on all the problems that I've had over the years.
Waiting in the doctors office was probably the worst between waiting an hour to be seen and feeling like I was wasting my time with another doctor who was probably going to tell me the same thing I've heard before. I'm glad I didn't walk out because honestly this doctor's verdict was the answer to all my prayers. I found out Friday, June 28th that I have what is called a retroverted uterus or titled uterus which can be corrected with surgery or by chance during my first pregnancy.
I was relieved to find out that it wasn't anything serious and to finally have an answer to all my problems. Really I couldn't be happier to finally know what is wrong with me, however since finding out I've been somewhat of an emotional wreck. I've never had surgery before in my life besides that one time in pre-k to have my tonsils and adenoids taken out but that doesn't even count right? Honestly, I think my biggest fear is the pain that will come after having the surgery and anyone who knows me knows that me and pain don't go hand in hand. It's bad enough that I have to take at least a month off of work to recover and keep from straining myself too much, so as you can see that causes quite a dilemma because I seriously love my job and all the people I work with. It kills me to leave them during our busiest time of the year, but having this surgery is in my best interest and for my future children.
I'm scheduled for surgery July 22nd and any positive thoughts or prayers would be greatly appreciated!
Thanks friends <3