Fear of the Unknown

July 13, 2013

Honestly, I don't even know where to start or even how to write what's been on my mind lately. All I know is that I've been super overwhelmed with all my emotions regarding my upcoming surgery next week and quite frankly I am exhausted. I think my biggest fear going into this surgery is not knowing what to expect although I know after my Pre-Op appointment Tuesday I'll have a better understanding of the procedure process itself but still surgery is surgery and it's just plain scary. 

I'm not only scared of the surgery itself but also of the pain that will follow it. Mostly though, I am terrified of what they might find to be the underlying cause of my problems. If there is one, what's next? It's seriously better for me not to even think about that because that in itself is enough to send me into a tizzy.

One thing I do know is that God is in control and that He will never give me more than I can handle. I am blessed beyond measures to have an amazing fiance who is my biggest support and who will be there for me in it's entirety even when I know I'll be the biggest pain in the ass and to have future in laws who will put up with my poor recovering self. All I can say is the doctor better prescribe me some good drugs because I don't think they'll be able to handle me otherwise ;)

As I go throughout this week my prayer is for God to calm my spirit &
give me the courage to go into this without being afraid of the unknown.

"I am leaving you with a gift--peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give isn't like the peace the world gives. 
So don't be troubled or afraid." 
John 14:27 

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  1. You are so right....God is in control. Keep those verses in your mind and repeat them when you start to feel scared. Hope you have a great week!

  2. Sweetie, just keep strong! I have the same problem you do, but I also have other factors involved. Just breath and take one day at a time. In the ended it will bee fine.

    Marie from listening rather then speaking

  3. Good luck and do not fear! God is with you ;)

  4. I wish you good luck with the surgery! I'm sure it will be ok.

  5. Praying that everything goes smoothly! Hugs!

  6. I pray that all goes well and that you may have His peace, comfort, and confidence.

    I remember my first surgery. I was so scared that when the anesthesiologist walked in to tell me what to expect, I started bawling my eyes out. It was so funny b/c he didn't know what to do, and I felt embarrassed. ha! :) After he left, the nurse said he was going to give me something that would make me feel muuuuuuch better. He put the meds in the iv and it was like an instant cocktail that made me feel euphoric. It was great, lol.

    Trust me when I say this; you will be fine and all will go well.

  7. I wouldn't worry about the what-ifs right now, you need to focus on keeping calm through your surgery. I know that's easy for me to say and easier said than done but you need to try. Worry about all those what-ifs when you're completely through the surgery. Until then you've got tons of people praying for not only a safe journey through the surgery but also through this whole experience. :)

  8. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I remember the first time I had surgery being scared to tears. Then I started counting backwards and woke up in recovery. It will all be fine I am sure

  9. I recently had surgery too and felt the same way! Just breathe. It's all in His hands, you will be a.o.k!

    Confessions Of A City Girl / Enerjiee

  10. keep positive and condifent all will be well. your faith is strong and nothing but success during and after will ensue

    enjoy every minute now and always

  11. Good morning Breanna, you are in my prayers this morning. You are right God is in control and he will not give you more than you can handle. Also he gives us peace. Your in my thoughts and I think your going to do just fine :)

  12. Keep your chin up!! Many prayers for you and hope for a quick recovery and a sense of peace from your pre-op appt. hugs!

  13. You are in my thoughts and prayers dear xo

  14. Just a true FYI....a very close friend was told she'd have trouble conceiving due to a "tilted" uterus...she then got pregnant 3 times ...over a 5 year span...so again...it's up to God.

  15. I'm sorry you're going through all of this, but you do have the right attitude. It's all in God's hands, and you don't know what is going to happen yet. Take it one step at a time. And I'll pray that everything goes well.

  16. Someone told me once that the will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you :) It seems so cliche, but it's stuck in my head and been a comfort to me my entire life. He's got you girl, and His plan is perfect. there IS no flaw! So thankful that you have Him to lean on during this difficult time :)


  17. Goodness girl, I'm just getting back into blogging, so I just caught up on what's been going on.

    First of all - I am sending SO MANY PRAYERS YOUR WAY. I know how nerve-wracking this whole process can be.

    I had surgery in February 2012 to unblock both of my tubes, and I was scared to DEATH. But? A month later, I conceived Jonah :)

    I know that it is so scary, and you are right...it's all in God's hands, and he will be with you the whole time!

    Sending lots of prayers, sweetie! You got this :)

  18. New Follower that found you from the GFC Friend Hop :)

    I will certainly keep you in my prayers! I'm still on a hunt, going from Dr. to Dr. to really try and find out what is wrong... I am certain this will do wonders for you :) Thank you for sharing your journey with us!

    Angie Mae

  19. Just reading about this now. Good luck with surgery. You will do great. I'm sure the nerves are going crazy right now and that is completely normal and understandable. Deep breaths and just think you will have answers when this is all over with. It is going to all be worth it!!!

  20. I'm facing surgery later this year and never done it before and am scared out of my mind as well. I think when you are faced with something you just deal with it and usually come out stronger on the other end. We just have to keep telling ourselves that we can do it and that it will be okay. Best of luck to you.

  21. Sending you so many positive thoughts and prayers <3


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